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The last time I wrote something here I think was after my first therapy appointment for Agoraphobia and anxiety. The nurse A left me with progressive musicle relaxtion excercises to pratice, though I admit I have been struggling with these. The first time I tried it in the bath and my muscles were aching, when I lay down afterwards I did feel more relaxed. The next time I tried was in bed, it's the feeling of letting myself go that I'm struggling with, it eneded in me having a panic attack and a horrible night. After a horrible few days of constant anxiety and panic it hasn't been going well.
Yesterday I was supposed to have my second appointment but for a number of reasons we had to cancel. I spoke to A on the phone and told her how I was struggling. I'm quite proud of myself for keeping her in the loop and not pretending. She told me that I have been tense for so long these will be really difficult but practice makes perfect. Don't stress myself or get frustrated that I'm struggling it's normal and that as long as I keep practicing she is happy. Theres so much she help she can offer I have to do my part I know this.
I got a phone yesterday from someone involved in the trauma group that is being set up. Next wednesday I'm going to meet her just to discuss it and to complete a questionare since it is part of a study. Two weeks later the group starts. I think it lasts 2 hours. I'm nervous but excited. Wednesday I see A again too.
Next week I have one or two other things going on too but my bf has the week off so I get to spend lots of time with him which balances it out.
I'm excited about everything but still finding it hard.
Anxiety has finally calmed down hopefully I can catch up here a bit.
I'm excited about all that's happeni
Yesterday I was supposed to have my second appointment but for a number of reasons we had to cancel. I spoke to A on the phone and told her how I was struggling. I'm quite proud of myself for keeping her in the loop and not pretending. She told me that I have been tense for so long these will be really difficult but practice makes perfect. Don't stress myself or get frustrated that I'm struggling it's normal and that as long as I keep practicing she is happy. Theres so much she help she can offer I have to do my part I know this.
I got a phone yesterday from someone involved in the trauma group that is being set up. Next wednesday I'm going to meet her just to discuss it and to complete a questionare since it is part of a study. Two weeks later the group starts. I think it lasts 2 hours. I'm nervous but excited. Wednesday I see A again too.
Next week I have one or two other things going on too but my bf has the week off so I get to spend lots of time with him which balances it out.
I'm excited about everything but still finding it hard.
Anxiety has finally calmed down hopefully I can catch up here a bit.
I'm excited about all that's happeni
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