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This blog was written earlier in the year, and I re-posted it here in an attempt to reconnect with my anger, so that I could try to figure out exactly what I was feeling. I find that sometimes. If I can't figure out how I am feeling, starting from an idntifiable feeling,(like anger)can help me figure out what else is going on.
:rant:/> :angry:/> :angry:/> :angry:/> :rant:/>
I am just so angry today. I am not triggered or anything just ANGRY.
I have been realizing just how badly I got screwed over. All of the people and steps that were supposed to protect me failed and I am the one who has to suffer the consiquentes (sp?)
So I figure since I am so angry, I would own my anger and really look at why. Besides some times a good mad can go a long way, - my floors look GREAT!
I am Angry because
it all just sucks, and I have a sneaking suspicion that if I wasn't so angry I would be in tears.
thanks for the vent :rant:/>
Source: My Anger is EPIC!
:rant:/> :angry:/> :angry:/> :angry:/> :rant:/>
I am just so angry today. I am not triggered or anything just ANGRY.
I have been realizing just how badly I got screwed over. All of the people and steps that were supposed to protect me failed and I am the one who has to suffer the consiquentes (sp?)
So I figure since I am so angry, I would own my anger and really look at why. Besides some times a good mad can go a long way, - my floors look GREAT!
I am Angry because
- :angry:/> The Youth organisation (YO) I was in allowed a pedophile to be a leader
:angry:/> The YO suspected his actions and did nothing (to be fair they did ask me and I lied but still... and anger doesn't always listen to reason)
:angry:/> The Church knew and didn't report it (I have found out that in my faith confessional seal doesn't cover SA, the priests are mandated reporters)
:angry:/> The rector at the time even condoned it by acknowledging "the relation ship" (tea at the vicars house)
:angry:/> My Mom made it stop but was bound and determined that nothing about it be said EVER
:angry:/> The police told me the stalking laws didn't apply to me, they were for famous people
:angry:/> The police told me the sexual exploitation was consensual because I was over 15
:angry:/> My information was recently released to the police even though the YO was given the info based on my anonymity years ago
:angry:/> Now years later the police want my help
:angry:/> Going to court will be hell
:angry:/> The charges will hurt my attackers children - of whom I am genuinely fond (not because of my actions but because it is one more awful thing their dad did)
:angry:/> I was trigged for the first time in years (by all this new stuff with the cops)and I was past all this shit and I didn't even have nightmares any more and now I have had to go back to T and am thrown back to where I was years ago
it all just sucks, and I have a sneaking suspicion that if I wasn't so angry I would be in tears.
thanks for the vent :rant:/>
Source: My Anger is EPIC!
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