I have blogged the past few days different quotes. Sort of as a way, I guess, of trying to get back into blogging here.
But I'm still feeling it, the whole reason why I stopped blogging.
I've been struggling, I still am. And when I struggle the way I've been doing lately, all I want to do is isolate. Push people away. Push those closest to me away.
And, unfortunately, that has included all of you here, my Pandy's family.
In some ways, it makes no sense at all. In other ways, it makes perfect sense. And it seems unfair, it feels unfair, to anyone here who reads my blog. And I never meant to be unfair.
But at the same time, it seems unfair, and feels unfair, to me. Because blogging here has always helped me so much. And, at the same time, it doesn't seem or feel unfair, because with my struggle comes the feeling and belief that I don't deserve anything that will help me.
So, I'm trying this again. I guess I'll see how it goes.