i dnt know how much more hate a person can feel for one's self. i dnt feel human. ;'( i cry so much n even mutelating myself doesnt even work any more.
im just so numb. i dnt think i have ever felt so fucking low! my body is tired. its sore physically in in pain. my chest is tight every time i take a breath. im drained n im tired. im fucking tired. does he want me to kill myself? i think so! hes such a FUCKING ASSHOLE! I HATE HIM! i think he feels like if i kill myself it will be eaiser so he doesnt have to do it himself. most nights i think i should do him a favor n end all my pain n suffering.
i was onced asked if he were capable ok actually killing me?!? WRONG QUESTION! She should have asked if i were capable of killing him?!? ummmmm... yea probably. wondering wen its gonna happen next.
my mom only cares for her self. she proved tht 2 me yesterday. y should i care for her for them wen no one gives a damn about wat im going through. ugh...... i need help. i need to run away. like in the movies wherethey have no care in the world n leave wverything behind.... ok for now im dne