WIll i ever love agian? a question that rings true every day of my life. I question my ability to open up to someone new. And when i do, i question how long it will last, how long until i will push them out again. I guess i honestly dont even remember what it feels like to love. To put your whole heart into something, someone... let them into your life and heart. I am not sure i can. Most days it doesn't bother me much, i've setteled on the idea of being single for life, independent woman thats me. Yet there are days that i long for that connection with someone, to be close, and trust, trust that they wont hurt me, wont leave me, will understand. But then again i dont want to make anyone understand how i feel, make anyone feel helpless because they cant reach out to me. That is my problem that i dont like to put on others. But here i am longing to find that someone, that person that will stand by my side. I just dont know if its possible for me, if there will ever be anyone out there that will love me for me. Because i can never really be me, i change to fit each person. So i guess that brings up another problem, who am i really? or will i be who i feel i really am when i find that right one, "mr. right" i guess thats something i will just have to wait and see.