I opened up to my husband a few nights ago and finally let a lot of my emotion out. What a relief! I also opened up to a very good friend. I'm not feeling as alone anymore.
Court will begin starting in October. It's very overwhelming and it makes it very real and very raw. I think some part of my mind has blocked my memory from when my attack happened in July.....now that court is starting, I'm feeling very panicked and it's all rushing back to me. I think my mind was in some state of shock but now it's opened up again
There is a new girl moving in downstairs from me and I think it will help me at night knowing that I'm not the only person in the duplex. *crosses fingers* My husband is trying very hard to get switched to the day shift instead of the night so he can be with me. I start group therapy soon and I'm very nervous but excited for it at the same time. I feel very vulnerable when I open up and sometimes its very hard. Some days, I feel like I've made the whole thing up or it was just a bad dream. But it's reality. And reality sucks sometimes.