I did call Dr K, but it was later in the day by the time I needed to call her. She didn't get back to me, but she probably will in the morning.
I have kept myself busy, and now I need to get to bed. I am hoping I can just go to sleep and not lay there and think and feel.
I've been having serious urges to SI, but I haven't. Which is excruciating, that I haven't given in.
I'd like the way I'm feeling to stop. I'd like to feel better, to be back where I was some months ago.
I'd like to just give up. Seriously.