trying to process....
I think it is important to remember to not second guess myself. To not go back and say to myself, if only you had done this. If only you had said this, or not done that. To not do any of that.
Because that only feeds in to the self blame. And I need to really be careful of the self blame.
Because that self blame leads to self injury and the strong desire to kill myself. Both of which I am struggling with right now.
A lot is so much more complicated than what it appears to be on face value.