Living a Double Life
Sometimes I want to scream and express what is really going on in my head. I look at people when they are talking or giving the fake "I care about you", "I want to be there to support you", "I love you". They really don't it is just easy and automatic to say those things to people.
I walk around smiling and laughing, really crying, screaming and slowly dying. Living this double life is really starting to wear me out. I wish I could open up to my T more then I do. Feeling alone. Tired of always thinking about taking my life. Next week will be the anniversary of my last suicide attempt.
I JUST WANT TO BE FUCKING HEARD AND LISTENED TO AND NOT DISMISSED OR IGNORED. Hell I can't stand the sound of my own voice, guess I get it. I would not listen to me.