You know what. You DO NOT have to explain yourself to ANYONE. You did what you had to do for you. It was him who should been questioned.. not you. You did nothing wrong.
When my grandmorther was comparing me to my 2 cousines that werer abused and she told me that she didn't beliefe it happened. I told her flat out..
" Look yu weren't there. You were not the one under that man. You were not the one being smothered, you were not the one who thought you were gonna die. I am sick and tired of everyone blaming me for something that he did. He was the adult,, i was the kid. He could of killed me and no one seems to care about that. I'm the one who lives iwth the memories adn the fears and teh pain. I did what I had to for that moment,, IF you can do better... they you go back in time and you try it."
With that I walked away and gave her the silent treatemnt for a whole day. I was NOT happy,,,,,, at all,, then she tried to buy me off with a 100 bucks. Hah. can't buy my trust.
April,, the point to all this is YOU were the one that survived adn you are the one that is taking responsiblity,, I highly doubt he is......so who should be questioned here...........????????//
Be gentel with yourself.