That's when he became most belligerent.
And because of that, the smell of alcohol makes me gag.
Living with my mom's side of the family-none of them drink. Not a drop. So I have a lot of discouragement towards alcohol.
I've never been a partier. And until a couple weeks ago, I had never tried alcohol.
I was at my boyfriend's brother's house and my boyfriend was 'monitoring' me to make sure I didn't drink too much.
Immediately after finishing my first drink, I felt warm. After my third drink, the usual chaos going on in my head, everything that causes me to freak out, was gone. It was just me and my immediate thoughts. I was free of my affliction.
After my fifth drink, I started to feel a little wobbly, like I'd taken a few more Xanax than I should have (I didn't take my medication at all that night, I'm just comparing the feeling).
My boyfriend told me that I was drunk. But I don't know what constitutes me as drunk. He had me do tests that the cops do to suspected drunk drivers. I did them all fine.
My boyfriend made me leave with him-he hadn't been drinking.
He put me to bed. He cuddled next to me and watched the Princess Bride with me.
Ever since that night, Alcohol is all I can think about. (Haven't drank since)
I told my boyfriend and he's worried that I'm going to have a problem.
He's made me promise not to drink without him there to watch me.
I'd like to say that it won't turn into a problem, but I don't know.
The alcohol made all the screaming in my head stop.
For the first time in a long time I felt normal.
And I loved it.