to quote Adam Ant...
— Adam Ant
And what are you supposed to do if what triggers your depression is inside of you?
I am so tired of feeling this way. And it isn't like Adam Ant is saying anything wrong, or anything that isn't true. Because I know there are things that can trigger depression, just as there are things that can trigger my anxiety, as well as my anger and rage.
But how do I deal with this just horrid internal depression. It seems that every time I have begun to pull myself out of this pit of depression, I just get knocked back down into that pit. Not by any external trigger. But just by this overwhelming feeling that comes from deep inside of me.
I'm starting to feel like I'm doomed to never feel better, to never feel whole, to never feel really human again.
Because I don't think that the way I feel is the natural state of the human condition.