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I think my boyfriend and I could use at least a small break from one another. Because of all the stress my mood swings have increased, back when I was seeing my old therapist she mentioned how I might consider being treated with pharmaceuticals. That's pretty much what has come to my attention now, even my boyfriend has started opening up and discussing his problems with my moods. I guess it's confusing because I don't feel like possibly having a mental disorder merits his bad behavior but it does make me see the 50/50 aspect of things going wrong between us. I've started to have physical reactions with my moods. It's so scary...I don't hurt anyone but I did break my side table. I lose sight of what I'm saying and what I'm doing and then I come to and I'm just crying uncontrollably on the floor. The other night I thought I saw something in the corner of my eye and I nearly jumped up to the ceiling, then I started to shake and I had to walk around in order to calm down. My boyfriend chased me outside and I started yelling for no reason. When I'm like that no one can touch me, I flinch and get defensive. I feel like I'm going mad, my paranoia is out of control lately...Why is there always a problem? Am I just completely losing my mind? I'm so lost. I can't afford therapy, no one has called me back for a job interview, my boyfriend and I are at each other's throats..I'm losing a lot of faith.