From: My Anger is EPIC!
I am just so angry today. I am not triggered or anything just ANGRY.
I have been realizing just how badly I got screwed over. All of the people and steps that were supposed to protect me failed and I am the one who has to suffer the consiquentes (sp?)
So I figure since I am so angry, I would own my anger and really look at why. Besides some times a good mad can go a long way, - my floors look GREAT!
I am Angry because
The Youth organisation (YO) I was in allowed a pedophile to be a leader
The YO suspected his actions and did nothing (to be fair they did ask me and I lied but still... and anger doesn't always listen to reason)
The Church knew and didn't report it (I have found out that in my faith confessional seal doesn't cover SA, the priests are mandated reporters)
The rector at the time even condoned it by acknowledging "the relation ship" (tea at the vicars house)
My Mom made it stop but was bound and determined that nothing about it be said EVER
The police told me the stalking laws didn't apply to me, they were for famous people
The police told me the sexual exploitation was consensual because I was over 15
My information was recently released to the police even though the YO was given the info based on my anonymity years ago
Now years later the police want my help
Going to court will be hell
The charges will hurt my attackers children - of whom I am genuinely fond (not because of my actions but because it is one more awful thing their dad did)
I was trigged for the first time in years (by all this new stuff with the cops)and I was past all this shit and I didn't even have nightmares any more and now I have had to go back to T and am thrown back to where I was years ago
it all just sucks, and I have a sneaking suspicion that if I wasn't so angry I would be in tears.
thanks for the vent
Source: My Anger is EPIC!