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Ok, so I admit, Christmas is hard for me. I miss my mom. I am a procrastinator with 3 babies to play santa for. My stress level is extremely high.
This morning, I went out to start the car for my husband because he was running late for work. As soon as the cold frost air hit me, i began to feel nauseated. I started his car and tried to breathe slowly because I just didn't feel well at all.
By the time I got into the house, he made a joke that I looked sick like I was pregnant. (morning sickness.) I took a glass of water and drank a few sips then I started feeling the cold sweat, the pounding in my head, light-headed, freezing cold.
He saw I wasn't doing well at all. I managed to tell him I felt like I was going to pass out. Right there on the kitchen floor, He sat me down and I stayed there until it finally passed.
When are these flash-backs going to stop????? I never in my life had so many triggers until now. Frost never bothered me before, but now I can only think of the cabin with those ass-hole bastards. I remember being so cold, outside while they hosed me with water. The ground was frosty then too.
I never made the correlation until this morning. Great ANOTHER trigger to worry about. I'm better off staying in my bed forever.
This morning, I went out to start the car for my husband because he was running late for work. As soon as the cold frost air hit me, i began to feel nauseated. I started his car and tried to breathe slowly because I just didn't feel well at all.
By the time I got into the house, he made a joke that I looked sick like I was pregnant. (morning sickness.) I took a glass of water and drank a few sips then I started feeling the cold sweat, the pounding in my head, light-headed, freezing cold.
He saw I wasn't doing well at all. I managed to tell him I felt like I was going to pass out. Right there on the kitchen floor, He sat me down and I stayed there until it finally passed.
When are these flash-backs going to stop????? I never in my life had so many triggers until now. Frost never bothered me before, but now I can only think of the cabin with those ass-hole bastards. I remember being so cold, outside while they hosed me with water. The ground was frosty then too.
I never made the correlation until this morning. Great ANOTHER trigger to worry about. I'm better off staying in my bed forever.
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I've been having some flashbacks that i've never really experience before start coming up for me lately as well. it just feels so never-ending doesn't it? Christmas is a stressful time, I know...especially since you have 3 little ones! I hope you're feeling better and I just wanted to send you a safe hug 
, if that's ok...thought you might could use one.
, if that's ok...thought you might could use one.
shelliebelle,
14 December 2011 - 01:47 PM
I fear having flashbacks so can relate to how sick they can make people. Please take good care of you. Blessings
bellachai,
14 December 2011 - 03:22 PM
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