It comes naturally since although I am not shy I am an introvert and a idealist. That is my world. When people and/or life drain my energy I have to recharge my batteries in my safe places. Sometimes I drain myself of energy with all the chatter in my head. Some say it is isolating and some say it is just the introvertedness (just created a new word)of me.
My safe places are: getting up at 4am cuz it is so quiet and peaceful and I like to watch the sunrise, sleeping as much as possible as there is no pain when sleeping (until it wakes me), headphones for my computer so I can shut out this cruel world and the worst tool I have is smoking. Nicotine releases serotonin instantly.
My computer is my best friend. I can get the news to stay up with current events, I can listen to music free on Grooveshark.com I have collected over 1000 songs and can create playlists (a very cool site).
I can play games. My favorite game is Gorillaz tiles. It soothes me to play this game cuz it is not difficult. Matching tiles to eliminate them all. It is organization which I lack in real life. While I play I can let all the chatter in my head flow through me therefore finding some relief.
I can watch any TV or movie free on my computer. It distracts me.
I signed up with Ancestry.com so am working on family trees. It lends me a purpose and is interesting.
I have Pandy's yet I stay away when I am struggling cuz I feel guilty as I want to be here to help people like me. That in itself is healing but when I struggle....
I have my pets to play with who love me unconditionally. They calm me and give me some laughter.
I also read a lot and I always have read a lot. Mysteries are my preferred reading material.
Yet here I am feeling empty without a purpose. There is a black hole in me that I can't seem to light up.
Blessings to all here.