a nice thing...
I haven't written since the accident last week. I've been pretty tired. Hurting all over.
I've also been triggered by the accident.
For the first day and a half after the accident, I was pretty much in shock. Both physically and emotionally. Since then, I've had more and more memories of the accident. Which has triggered memories of the rapes. I had a nightmare last night, one I haven't had in a long time. And I've been having body memories of the rapes too.
I talked some about that in my session today. Dr K totally understands, and says that what I'm going through is normal.
Maybe tomorrow will be a little bit better.
Anyway, to the picture I posted. It is a mala, buddhist prayer beads, that I made. I used coral beads, turquoise beads, aventurine beads, the guru bead is made of brass and mother of pearl, and then there are brass findings. It placed first in local judging for the VA art show competition. Now it will go on to the second round of judging for the competition. My painting also placed first.
I am particularly proud of my mala. I made it to use, but found it to be too pretty and worthy of the art competition.
I have found that using a mala for meditation is extremely helpful to me. It grounds me, centers me, calms me, in a way. I feel something like peace when I use it in meditation. It is almost a freeing feeling.
So anyway, wish me luck. I am really hoping my mala wins at the national level.