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I was a beautiful princess for the first 3 years of my life. I was the daughter of a beautiful queen and strong king. I was spoiled by the royal courts. I was held in high regard, until one day, with no reason the faerie tale changed.....
The king and queen were away on a short voyage, thus I was left in care of the court jester. I was happily being a spoiled princess.... then I fell a long way down. The jester instead of making me laugh and being funny, was scary and made me cry. :cry:/>
I was left with a dark secret, and did not know what to do. Until one day, I was in my castle with the royal queen. I told her of the wickedness that the royal jester ensued. THe queen was angry. I DON'T BELIEVE YOU!
Puzzled, I sat and stared. What happened to my queen? Wasn't I good enough anymore? I reached up for my crown, it was less sparkly and couldn't be shined.
Next came a phone call to the royal Mother from the queen. The royal Mother confirmed what I said. She had questioned the jester earlier, and he had confessed, due to immense guilt. Enraged, my queen slammed down the phone, turned and glared at me. I reached up and touched the crown again. My fingers came away black.
The queen told the King of what I had said and He was enraged. There were conferences that followed, where I was not allowed, things discussed that were forbidden to talk about around me. Suggestions made that goe ignored, and decisions made that confused the court.
The princess felt very guilty and was left with a rock in her chest. When she was older, she tried to speak of this with the queen, but she was dismissed every time. She feels very very very awful.
The king and queen were away on a short voyage, thus I was left in care of the court jester. I was happily being a spoiled princess.... then I fell a long way down. The jester instead of making me laugh and being funny, was scary and made me cry. :cry:/>
I was left with a dark secret, and did not know what to do. Until one day, I was in my castle with the royal queen. I told her of the wickedness that the royal jester ensued. THe queen was angry. I DON'T BELIEVE YOU!
Puzzled, I sat and stared. What happened to my queen? Wasn't I good enough anymore? I reached up for my crown, it was less sparkly and couldn't be shined.
Next came a phone call to the royal Mother from the queen. The royal Mother confirmed what I said. She had questioned the jester earlier, and he had confessed, due to immense guilt. Enraged, my queen slammed down the phone, turned and glared at me. I reached up and touched the crown again. My fingers came away black.
The queen told the King of what I had said and He was enraged. There were conferences that followed, where I was not allowed, things discussed that were forbidden to talk about around me. Suggestions made that goe ignored, and decisions made that confused the court.
The princess felt very guilty and was left with a rock in her chest. When she was older, she tried to speak of this with the queen, but she was dismissed every time. She feels very very very awful.
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This is basically my space to spill out everything I'm thinking and feeling.
Please note that some of the content here may be triggering.
What I write here is just me being honest with myself. Mostly just venting about things, realisations, and my path through healing.
There will be talk of CSA, SA, R, SI and ED here.
Please note that some of the content here may be triggering.
What I write here is just me being honest with myself. Mostly just venting about things, realisations, and my path through healing.
There will be talk of CSA, SA, R, SI and ED here.
