From: Stress Eating Problem Since Childhood
At twelve I started working out all the time, running, lifting weights and doing the early morning aerobics early in the morning. Thank you Richard Simmons. I did the workouts to lose the weight in hopes my father would stop calling me names and my mother would stop harping on me about my weight also. It did not help. When I stated Jr. high I discovered the whole not eating thing. I would restrict, over exercise and the rest of the weight came off. It never really made my parets happy, they still rode me.
This past year I have been going through personal issues and under alot of stress. From my husband's work, me in school, back in therapy working on my csa and other stuff. I thougt I had a handle on it until now, I realized I am losing control. There is something I want or looking for. For awhile I was using material stuff like purses, watches and clothes. I have used alcohol to feel that void. Now I have gone back to food, my one and only faithful friend/enemy. After I am done feeling physically sick to my stomach and stupid for allwoing myself to give in again. I have not told my therapist any of this. The only problem with food is I am putting on weight like crazy now. Or sneak to go eat, especially when I know I am supposed to be watching what I eat.
Pretty much tired of being the person with problem after problem. Doing things externally to make the internal me feel good. To mask the hurt and not let down of people in my life. With no success. I wish I knew what to do???
Source: Stress Eating Problem Since Childhood