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loveinflames

swallowing pills. UGH UGH UGH the worst, and I have to every day :bawling:

Driving at night, especially on highways

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LovelyLadybug427

Being told that I'm "amazing"--this is what my most recent rapist told me before and after he raped me

condoms

the "f" word

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unshattered_dreams

being told that i'm sexy, being pulled by the hand/wrist, being held down, the smell of alcohol on someone's breath, the smell of abercrombie & fitch and hollister cologne, anyone raising their voice at me, and most recently if a dog starts licking me i completely freak out.

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I know I have quite a few but can only think of these

Metal / chemical smells

Feeling like I am not in control

General close contact especially hand holding or hand on my shoulder

Lucy

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I know I have quite a few but can only think of these

Metal / chemical smells

Feeling like I am not in control

General close contact especially hand holding or hand on my shoulder

Lucy

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lilyvanilla

um.

*cold, cloudy weather. [also. i have SAD, so]

*my dad touching me. [to clarify, he wasn't the one who assaulted me]

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lilyvanilla

oh and i hate it when people say 'scream' since he - the guy who assaulted me, that is - did. said it. i don't hear that word often, and even if it's completely irrelevant. it still. i don't like it.

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I thought of some more

Tea towels

Transit vans

People telling me what to do

Lucy

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photos of myself as a child ....and my baby sisterbawling.gif

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BladeDancer

i don't think mine are that weird, but i do have some

* older men

* the feeling of a mustache or beard ( my boyfriend doesn't know why i always want him to shave, he's so sweet tho :))

* people standing behind me especially while sitting and especially guys

* anyone i don't now really well touching me, even if its a girl trying to hug me in a friendly way

* i almost completely flip out when an older guy puts his hand on my shoulder. i know they don't mean it like that, but still

* being in a crowd, school hallways are terrible. i've gotten a lot better, and it's slowly disappearing so great rejoicing

* naive adults who just think the whole world is rosy. I want to shake them and tell them to pay attention!!! It's pretty pathetic, but it's a mix of me being bitter they can think that and wanting to keep them that way so they dont have to suffer too. in a way they make me feel like a protective parent over them even when they're older than me

those triggers i can handle well enough that people just think im anti-social, but when i hear about someone getting hurt in any kind of SA i freak out. im talking on-the-verge-of-putting-a-hole-through-the-wall angry and really upset i cant do anything about it. (i considered getting a punching bag but my apartment wouldn't appreciate that)it always drags up memories and i wish i could somehow just stop everyone from getting hurt.

sorry for the long list - -"

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JacquiLeigh

-my feet being grabbed

-the smell of bean and cheese frozen burritos cooking

-sudden movements

-seeing angry eyes, man or woman

-Winterfresh gum

-the smell of motor oil

-hearing thuds and creeks when I'm in the shower

-people coming up behind me

-hispanic men with certain facial features

So there's a few.

:blink:

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  • 1 month later...

if i find condoms in my room i freak out... they are obviosly still wrapped but i get worried someone had sex with me in the middle of the night and i make things up in my head. its traumatic. and i feel depressed..

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Hmmmm...

Excema on hands and the feel of rough skin

Rape scenes on tv

Having my wrists held

Being 'trapped' under my duvet

And I'm sure their is more just eluding me at the moment!

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SunbulDynamite

The Thomas the Tank Engine theme tune (yay, alliteration!), young girls playing with older women, and any situation in which I have to hug several people in a short amount of time (family gatherings are the worst... I have to hug around fifty people in five minutes, I absolutely hate it.)

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butterflydreamer

Swearing, particularly when someone is angry

Not feeling like I am in control

Cigarette smoke, I can't stand the smell

Pepsi the drink

Being outside at night either alone or surrounded by a number of people I don't know

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some of mine are:

Touching (even hugs)

Holding my wrists

Fingernails and hands that look delicate and not "very manly" (if that made sense)

Almonds

Chevy trucks

Motorcycles

Men+teen boys

Anything that makes me think of the situation or any of these things ive listed will make me uncomfortable. And at school especially if i daydream and think about it, it get awkward for me.

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this is my first time posting so here goes

the smell of dying honeysuckles - it was that time of year

anything wet on my face, espcially someone licking me - think I know why

lying down in public (face down or face up)no idea why - it doesn't fit the scenerio

people telling me that something I am upset about isn't a big deal

anything on my neck

fooling around while standing up

not feeling like I am good enough and lots of compliments (its a hard place to be)

The movie Wild at Heart - there is a hotel room scene that made me run away

The songs "Yesterday" by the Beatles, "Time after Time" by Cindy Lauper and "Jaine's Got a Gun" - I have no idea why for any of them

Fake wood paneling especially in basements - that's where I was

Driving - I have no idea why

A co-worker - he creeps me out

Young girls playing outside without an adult around - I want to warn them

I feel like there are more - lots of things make me feel small but I never know what they are

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Now I'm not sure if all my triggers are from the most recent trauma or from my childhood trauma's...

-dark

-shadows

-walking up stairs at night

-hearing the light switch off

-hearing people walk around on the floor below me... huge problem since I now live in an apartment

-seeing young girls with older men

-the sound of zippers

-hearing diesel trucks

-hearing car doors shut

-seeing a red truck

-hearing someone in pain or trying to struggle... I'm a nurse so this is a problem

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Adalaide_Girl - You mentioned Sex stuff on tv, magazines (like girl magazines and underwear catalouges), pop up internet screens.

This is me too, it's very odd...not only just seeing that stuff, but when my partner is looking at that stuff too.

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I can only think of one... my bf is asian and speaks mandarin ( i am asian too) with a thick accent so when I hear people speaking it, I get reminded of him and of it. I feel uncomfortable but not incapacitated. Not a panic attack, but just wanting to get away from it.

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constantvariable

I don't know if I have any that are "weird"... probably pretty typical ones, I guess.

People - men only, really - that are mad/agnry/raising their vioce...

Certain types of guys - really aggressive guys...

Being touched anywhere around my neck.

There are a lot of triggers... occasionally, I encounter a new one - something i've not dealt with before and therefor didn't realize it would be a trigger...

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being touched or grabbed from behind

certain flavors of bubble gum

a closet being open when the room is dark

anybody saying 'let's play a game'

skittles used to be one but not really much anymore

people making out

and the really weird one is a major one too

hide and seek. it takes everything in me not to panic if asked to play (i volunteer with junior highers and used to work at a daycare)

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nolongeryours

Hi everyone I am new to Pandys. I think listing my trigger will be very helpful to my healing process.

*trigger warning please read with caution*

:trigger:

Some of these are also from a physically/emotionally abusive relationship.

-Red dodge dakotas

-Peas

-Tuna fresh or canned

-Bunk beds

-Red heads (males only)

-Churches

-Religion

-Christian/Gospel music (it was on during)

-Theological Colleges (especially the one "he" went to)

-Graduation tassels (it was hanging on "his" wall)

-White sheets

-21st Birthday

-Having my face touched (only two people can)

-Raised hands for any reason

-Having my face grabbed (an ex thought it was a good way to help get me over having my face touched) :tear:

-His first name

-Certain p*rn

-Driving with the windows down

-Joel Osteen (no offense to anyone but he really bothers me for some reason) :confused:

-Having to repeat myself

-Fake apologies

-Crowded spaces

-His apartment

-His cologne :)barf

-Target

-Iniating any types of affection including hugs :bawling:

-Discussions of the first time having s*x (including discussions of the first kiss can make me run out of a room) :bawling:

-People laughing around me

:trigger:

Thats all I can think of at the moment I am sure there is more.

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I don't know that I really have any ones that are too weird.

But I don't like it when people stand in front of a light so all you can see is their silhouette. I don't like rough housing (and people never respect this). I don't like overly religious people or items that remind me of someone who's strongly Christian (I don't think he was, but his wife was and so their house was filled with that stuff). Dentists, and this one I've recently figured out after years of having no clue why :/

That's all I can think of right now.

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