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The Belt... *t*

Posted by JacquiLeigh , 08 November 2011 · 144 views

The first time I remember I was 4.

:trigger: :trigger:

These are the rules.
Pull your pants down.
Bend over the bed.
Keep your arms in front of you.
Get beaten with the leather belt.

I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry! I'M SORRY! Daddy I didn't mean to I'm sorry!! NO! No daddy, no please, I didn't mean to! Please daddy! NO!

This hurts me more than it hurts you. Now, I love you and that's why I have to do this. I didn't make you do that. Now you're making me do this. I don't want to do this.

The whips come.
Pain sears through like fire on skin.
Lots of screaming.
You try to get away.
Moving around and trying to get away make it worse.
So much worse.
He doesn't stop when you move.
There's a number he has to get to.
The number that hit your bottom.
That doesn't count legs.
Or back.
Or hands.
Or arms.
It's not his fault you were moving around so much.
It's not his fault you made him do that.
One whip for each year of age.
When it's done you're all red.
It all burns and stings.
He says he loves you.
Wants to hug you.
You say you're sorry.


This all sounds hauntingly familiar to me too. It is brave that you wrote it.
Nov 08 2011 04:16 PM
I needed to get it out. I'm sorry you can relate.
Wow I can relate to this. Only it was my evil step father. His MO was over his lap with a wide leather belt and if I was real "bad" it was a thin belt as it cut and hurt more. I also was only 4 when it started.

It was brave of you to share this dispicable treatment. I am sorry this happened to you and I know how damaging it is.

Many blessings to you.
Nov 08 2011 11:52 PM
Thank you bellachai, so much. I appreciate it more than you know.
I remember begging my mum to protect me against my father and she did not. Once I was beaten by him in the kitchen, mum was there too, I had to pull the pants and bend down and lie on the chair :bawling: . What's with that parents. They don't love children at all and beat all positive emotions out of them.
Dec 01 2011 06:23 PM
I don't know why people do that Luelle. I'm sorry you had to go through what you did.

I don't know why people do that Luelle. I'm sorry you had to go through what you did.

You know, I read an article against beating children and in one paragraph it was compared to rape. Omg, I experienced both and wouldn't tell which one hurt me more. Anyway, these two seems to often come together :(

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