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Memories

18 August 2011

Posted by unicorn4 in memory

I just joined this website a little over a month ago with only one vague memory of what happened and some really messed up feelings. Between reading the articles on the site and the forums, a lot of new memories have been showing up. It's what I wanted, so I can't complain from that respect, but it's also incredibly overwhelming.

Just a few weeks ago I only had a small idea of what took place which caused me to completely doubt myself all the time and now I have a huge handful of memories and am very sure that I'm not completely nuts. I didn't expect it to happen this fast. A part of me is happy about it but another part of me is really frustrated. I haven't had much of an appetite. I've had to force myself to eat more often than not. My sleeping schedule is all out of whack and I spend most of my days struggling to focus and being angry and irritable all the time.

I don't want it to stop, exactly. I don't even want it to slow down. I need these memories for things to get a little better. But I also need sanity. So I guess I just wanted to vent about how frustrating and difficult this has been :/ I'm really not sure how to deal with it.

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I really want to respond to this post in a good way but right now I can only say I've heard and totally understand.

Zelda, 18 August 2011 - 04:02 PM

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Zelda, on 18 August 2011 - 04:02 PM, said:

I really want to respond to this post in a good way but right now I can only say I've heard and totally understand.

Thanks

Any response is good as far as I'm concerned.

unicorn4, 19 August 2011 - 06:15 PM

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BhaaDass, on 18 August 2011 - 04:04 PM, said:

I know exactly how you feel. Don't worry about the memories. They will come when they're ready. It takes as long as it takes. It SUCKS, because there is no timeline. Everyone is different. The maddening thing is that it has to unfold in it's own time. The best thing you can do is be kind to yourself. As kind or kinder than you would to a good friend going through the same thing. Surround yourself with love and support and know that you are a warrior. Those people who go out seeking "extreme" sports or experiences? FEH. They've got nothing on us. This is the stuff that takes REAL courage.

Thanks so much for the support. Hehe, I am one of those people that like extreme sports sometimes though