My latest meeting with my abuser
This time, he was more reserved. I felt far more threatened by this, because it was so different to his normal behavior. He's no longer trying to figure out how much i remember about what he did to me, as it clear I remember alot. But he kept giving me this look that I could only perceive as menacing. I was so uncomfortable, and desperate to leave.
When it was time to go I slipped out of the house without saying goodbye to him, thinking I had made a clean escape. But my sister had insisted on me giving her a ride, so I was forced to sit in the car and wait for her. Because she took so long, my uncle eventually wandered outside. I was terrified he would try to come to my car window and locked the doors. He walked from the house to the street where I was parked in the darkness and just stood in the road, about ten feet away, staring at me with a very mean expression on his face. He stood like that for over a minute until my sister came out, before turning wordlessly and going back into the house.
I feel so unsafe tonight. I can't sleep, because all I can think is that he knows where I live, what if he tries to come here and do something to me? Why was he just standing there in the street, looking at me? Was it just to intimidate me, or was he trying to memorize my license plate number? Arghghgh.... am I overanalyzing this?
I will never go to the annual family Christmas dinner again, and I think it was a serious mistake to have gone tonight. I don't ever want to see that evil man again. I had nightmares all week and my intuition was telling me not to go tonight, but I went anyway. I wish I could shake this uneasy feeling, I can't help but be afraid he's planning to do something bad to me.