my friend of 15 years committed suicide, I am so lost at what to do. My sister heard about it and text me to see if I was okay, im sure she thought that I was dead because i was napping and she said "please respond to me, so i know your okay" I do feel like doing it, but i guess that wouldnt make too many people happy. Im so tired of feeling like shit all the time, I just want to have good days where I can be happy. I havent felt happy in a very long time. It seems like all I get is shit days...Its been two months since his mom passed away, and now him!!! Im so overwhelmed with all this pain, then to add my normal everyday shit....what to i do? Yes i know counseling will help....blah blah blah...thats a given! Im just soooo lost at what to say, what to do, and even what to think.