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I CAN"T take this

11 August 2012
Posted by amandaunderthepink 
Feels like my insidews are slowly being squeezed....can't breathe, can't think and the smallest thing triggers me nowadays. I am scared and I can't take it anymore.I don't feel anything. I'm numb. I don't understand why I am numb. I can't think of anything about the abuse, or I am terrified that I will lose my mind.

When I was younger, I lived a faerie tale life. Now, as I am older, I weep, clutching the bits and peices of my faerie tale.
I am forever changed, forever broken and all I want is to be normal again

 
Back to here in my head →

2 Comments On This Entry

Don't say "forever broken". You're surrounded by people who felt like they would never heal, but did so anyway.
I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time, but please, don't lose hope that there's light at the end of the tunnel.
Tillit, 11 August 2012 - 07:09 PM
I am numb but know that I can feel, I have been hiding in the apartment un der my blanket and with my blanky. I to feel I am broken, and feels like an eternity for things to change. The little I have done feels like nothing but if I true ope' my eyes I see the journey ahead and behind. There are blue shies ahead and there were blue skies from the past. Here for you however I can be of help.

Just poking my head out from under the covers.(lol)

H
Hurricane2, 12 August 2012 - 10:46 AM
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