I avoid calls from the only friend i have i left. I can't pretend to be interested in her pointless complaints. I wish she'd really care. And listen.
I avoid reaching out to anyone. I worry people will see me as desperate or needy.
I avoid admitting these things. They make me feel selfish. I feel self centered talking about what i want. What i want never mattered before.
I avoid admitting theses things. Do people think im pathetic? Thats all i can wonder.