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Posted by kanata , 18 March 2012 · 71 views

It is just my luck to be in the middle of a crisis due to the anniversary and have my T go away for a week. He has tried his best to help me while gone by picking two of his colleagues for me to call, and letting me call his answering machine and e-mailing him. He tried to offer more help. To go to a place where they have supervision for a week. A safe place. But I can't take my dog so I decided not to go.

I feel bad for e-mailing him. Bad for leaving him a message while he is gone because it grounds me. I feel so stupid about the whole thing. Feel like I am asking for too much. Being too needy. It is disgusting.

I'd try to phone his colleagues but it is useless. They just know that I'm struggling with a past trauma anniversary. And I don't even know what help I want. Someone to magically make it all better.

I just feel sick. Being this huge emotional vampire. I hate myself for it. Why can't I handle this myself???



I am sending you support, also it sounds like your T would be more than happy for you to email him or leave a message if you feel like you need to. It is hard to not feel "needy," at the same time it is so important to realize your T is SAFE and has given you permission to reach out.

I am sending you support, also it sounds like your T would be more than happy for you to email him or leave a message if you feel like you need to. It is hard to not feel "needy," at the same time it is so important to realize your T is SAFE and has given you permission to reach out.


Thanks for your support. It means a lot. It is hard when you have been raised to never ever show weakness by asking for help to suddenly be this emotional black hole that needs support 24/7.

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