Tired and over thinking
I am at the point where I need to start being completely open and not just on my blogs. My thing is I am scared to death, scare of what I will reveal and then actually saying most of it out loud. For me that is the most traumatic piece of everything. Writing and saying it makes it true, makes it all real. Wake up and wantin to forget but can't. Hoping it is a lie or maybe like I stated in previous posts thinking I am crazy. I know it happened and it is true, I cannot change the facts. But feeling back for myself is not an option any more.
Ok I am also really tired adn want to go to sleep, at work and can't. wow.