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Donna Mae DePola - Guest Speaker Chat ...May 25th 2013 ... for more information please read this!
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I haven't really been feeling much pain lately. The numbness I once felt is easing into a dull ache of what I am assuming what I didn't want to feel, but need to feel in order to function the way that I want to in the world. I am finally freeing myself from the choke-hold stagnancy I have been feeling for some time now. It leaves me weak and lightheaded to not only recognize I had/have the power to let go of certain things, but that I actually committed to myself and liberated me.
Now that I have freed myself I am struggling with how to act. I am a bit more snappy with people and quick to point out if they are trying to lecture me or if they actually doing whatever it is our interaction calls for. My last few arrangements of social enjoyments haven't gone the way I planned and I want to cry sometimes about it because it feels like it is something else I can't quite do right. I can't keep people focused on just having a good time while I am there, I can't get them to focus on the work we are suppose to be doing, I can't derail people from talking about subject matters I don't want to discuss anymore.
Now that I have freed myself I am struggling with how to act. I am a bit more snappy with people and quick to point out if they are trying to lecture me or if they actually doing whatever it is our interaction calls for. My last few arrangements of social enjoyments haven't gone the way I planned and I want to cry sometimes about it because it feels like it is something else I can't quite do right. I can't keep people focused on just having a good time while I am there, I can't get them to focus on the work we are suppose to be doing, I can't derail people from talking about subject matters I don't want to discuss anymore.
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