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Trigger warning. (Just don't read this)

Posted by Simpletruth , in Personal 06 February 2014 · 65 views

I want death.
I want it so badly that I don't care whether it's quick and easy.
Once it's coming.
Once it comes fast,
Then I'll succumb.
I'm so fed up.
So tired,
Of watching mindless souls indulge in frivolity,
While I sit on my bed,
Wondering if sleep is a good idea,
Till tegretol makes that decision for me,
And I wake up in fear.
Again.
Again!
So fuck this stupid life I'm living.
I exist solely for all the people I'm helping.
But other than that,
I'm worthless.
A boyfriend that treats me like I'm solid gold.
That has to listen to my pathetic whimpers every damn night?
Worthless.
He deserves better.
Better than this mass of solid waste.
I'm so tired.
So tired.
Just kill me.



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whodatninja
Feb 06 2014 09:52 AM

totally feels

totally relates. wish i had some words of wisdom. if it were not for my child i wouldn't stick around. sometimes the 'fact' that yes i can do this.....makes no dang difference.

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Simpletruth
Feb 08 2014 08:17 PM
Thank you both for commenting. I am deeply sorry that you can relate.

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