trying to make sense...
I am wondering. Is having to confront the trauma like I've been doing with trauma processing, is that having something to do with how I have been feeling?
Never before in therapy did I really confront it like I have done with Dr K.
I think that, before, there was always a way that I could run from confronting it, if I wanted to.
With Dr K, I couldn't. She wouldn't let me. She still won't. She calls me on it when I try to avoid. And, to be honest, I do that quite often.
Although there are times that I'd like to be able to. Lately, I've been dealing with memories, and some nightmares. I've been triggered a few times, and have been experiencing some anxiety around men in general.
I'm going to try, but I'm also going to try to not think too hard about, writing more often. I know it helped me in the past.
I'm hoping that it will help me again.