alone again... naturally
I've had so many therapists its silly.
Mainly because I always seem to get help and then they leave.
Anyways, I took and over dose last April, and even after that no one would help me.
No wonder i feel alone...
Get some help, which i have to pay for, but then she's being pretty unhelpful.
Making it all about her, and apparently I don't open up or talk about how i feel?!
So talking about my brother, and my family and how i feel about them isn't talking about how i feel?
aaaaaaaaaaaaaand to make it worse the therapist makes it about herself.
Basically saying i MUST be angry at her, when really i'm completely indifferent to her.
I MUST be angry because she's pregnant and taking leave. for a month. big whoop
i know she's coming back.
I'm starting to think this kind of talking to someone isn't constructive.
She just critiques what i tell her, so i now naturally don't want to talk to her.
So i think I'm going to try a thing called EMDR, my brothers having it, and it seems to be helping him... so why not?
though, I'm so depressed i have no drive or energy to do anything other than stare at the TV screen.
Also surelly as a therapist, she should understand WHY i don't want to talk about certain events. seeing as one of them has only just come out in the last 2 months! so its fresh, its painful and i don't know how to deal with it, so yes i do avoid certain topics. But why criticize this?
you wait for someone to talk about it in their own time...
just so tired and sad all the time.
i have no one i can talk to about anything.
im miles away from home at Uni, and all i want to do is be at home with my mum.