Dilemma of written word. Please help.
I changed my name when I turned 10, and although I have suffered since then, the worst things, the terrible terrible things, happened to the me I was before I was me... if that makes sense; therefore- if I were to write, now, in this place, what happened- I can no longer say it happened to her. Those things happened to me. That scares me. To think that THEY have that part of me- a part that should have been saved, a part of me that should have been my choice to give away. That scares me.
This whole thing scares me. If I face it, will I lose who I am now?
Being a new member, I don't get to 'tell my story' yet- but when the time comes that I'm allowed to, will it help? To see it in writing. That makes it so much more permanent. Real. Terrifying.