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The title says it all. My rapist texted me and asked about a 3-some. I agreed, but somehow it just turned into me and his cute friend...with the rapist watching us...
I'm not sure what got into me, but I might see this guy again. We like each other and possibly see it going forward.
But-that's not the point of this blog.
The point is that, well, sometimes I get too carried away, and forget that sometimes, you just have to be careful. .....I've had sex numerous times, maybe a little too much, for someone my age, and somehow I've managed to not get preg. The guy I was with asked me if I could have kids, and I said no. (I've been to doctors about it and such and no one's sure what's going on with my body). So we went on without protection, and now I feel for the first time even after having been with my ex, that this could actually happen.
I went out with my friend last night, and we exchanged sex stories like normal teenagers lol and she pretty much told me that I still had a chance of having a kid...so, I looked it up online today. I never really knew much about ovulation or periods, since I've never had one, but when I got to the info about ovulating I freaked. I thought that stuff happened because I was randomly turned on, not because my body was changing!
And now, I'm even more scared. I was with this guy on Sunday, and nothing has happened yet this month. I mean, each time I had sex I tell myself to not over-exaggerate things but...now I'm not sure :/ I was never on birth control or anything so...who knows?
I'm not sure what got into me, but I might see this guy again. We like each other and possibly see it going forward.
But-that's not the point of this blog.
The point is that, well, sometimes I get too carried away, and forget that sometimes, you just have to be careful. .....I've had sex numerous times, maybe a little too much, for someone my age, and somehow I've managed to not get preg. The guy I was with asked me if I could have kids, and I said no. (I've been to doctors about it and such and no one's sure what's going on with my body). So we went on without protection, and now I feel for the first time even after having been with my ex, that this could actually happen.
I went out with my friend last night, and we exchanged sex stories like normal teenagers lol and she pretty much told me that I still had a chance of having a kid...so, I looked it up online today. I never really knew much about ovulation or periods, since I've never had one, but when I got to the info about ovulating I freaked. I thought that stuff happened because I was randomly turned on, not because my body was changing!
And now, I'm even more scared. I was with this guy on Sunday, and nothing has happened yet this month. I mean, each time I had sex I tell myself to not over-exaggerate things but...now I'm not sure :/ I was never on birth control or anything so...who knows?
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Take care.
Ciao...xo,
Szilvia
Keep the head up.