I went to the local well womans clinic on Monday to try and find out what was wrong with my vulva - I have been suffering with burning sensations and irritation for months now - I had thought it was thrush initially but all the tests came back clear and after several visits to my GP and a lot of pushing they finally referred me on. Anyway the upshot is that I have Vulvadynia but the surprising thing for me was after a lengthy consultation and her asking me a raft of questions she came up with PTSD as a route cause for it and all my other aches and pains now make sense and fit in with it as well.
So now I finally have a diagnosis that makes sense and explains so much of what I have been through in my life to date. I have been prescribed Gabapentin for nerve pain so will e interested to see if it has a positive effect over the next few weeks, I have also agreed to go for some counseling sessions when I get back from my honeymoon - this is something I have never done always telling myself I had things under control - despite all the night terrors and feelings of fear, panic and everything else.
My partner has been very understanding about my emotional up and downs since we met - he now understands them a little better following this huge piece of the jigsaw being fitted into place as do I. Having this diagnosis is some kind of comfort that I am not imagining everything - my pain is real. Now I begin on my path to healing I am sure it will also have many twists and turns but I feel some hope for the future now.
I am with a good man whom I love very much - he loves me too and will do all he can to help me through everything. Getting teary now so may write more later.