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I just can't do this any more! I told a friend what happened with my ex a few months back and he said it was the r word! I can't deal with this, I just can't. Why does this keep happening?! It's like the third person now, why?!?!?!?!!?
Angry, upset, confused, just can't deal. Really really really triggered right now. Keep getting graphic images in my head of what I want to do, well not want to do but ya know, just those urges!
Ya know those times when it just hurts so so much inside, you feel like you're going to explode, you just don't know what to do, can't cope. And you just need to let it out the only way you know how, except you can't do that because that's just wrong, you CAN'T get drawn into that cycle again but I don't know what else to do. Just wanna scream!!!
Angry, upset, confused, just can't deal. Really really really triggered right now. Keep getting graphic images in my head of what I want to do, well not want to do but ya know, just those urges!
Ya know those times when it just hurts so so much inside, you feel like you're going to explode, you just don't know what to do, can't cope. And you just need to let it out the only way you know how, except you can't do that because that's just wrong, you CAN'T get drawn into that cycle again but I don't know what else to do. Just wanna scream!!!
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Oh I know the feeling of wanting to hurt someone, if this is what you mean. I really really do. I want to scream as well, all the time. I feel like I'm in a silent scream. UGH! Well, we aren't alone so at least we do have other good people. 
endlessocean,
29 November 2012 - 03:39 AM
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I will try to keep any reference to specific SI behaviour to a minimum however reference to the assault will not always be censored. I don't want to trigger anyone so just want you to be warned. Most of the time it will be okay but just so you are aware. Take gentle care.
