I've been in and out of a relationship with one of my best friends for over a year. We really have a very volatile and unpredictable relationship, because I'm so emotionally damaged. I wasn't the perfect girlfriend, but then the perfect girlfriend doesn't exist. We met in year 10 at school, the year before I was raped. I know he wants things to be how they were, but I'm not that girl I was when he met me. I'm more damaged and broken and lacking trust. As a result of post traumatic distress I had non epileptic seizures, lost all my friends and my school. He's stuck around through everything, but I just want him to be more patient and loving. He can't handle what happened to me, and I wonder if we'll ever be able to move on from it together. I know I'm young, but I really do love him.