Just a vent
What did a child do to warrant such atrocity.
What can a child do to warrant an atrocity.
A child can't. A child is innocent of any wrongdoing of the wrong that was exacted upon that child.
I am innocent of any wrongdoing, utterly, completely, totally, without any doubt whatsoever, innocent, period and of story.
I know this in my mind, but when I feel otherwise in my heart, hell breaks lose in my head. Which is confusing to me because I have asked myself many times, do my thoughts follow my feelings or do I have a thought and my feelings follow accordingly. Not an easy question for me at all.
This I do know for a fact. When I look at a picture myself at 8 years old, I don't care what kind of rage I'm in, how deep my depression is at that moment, I can't look at me and say, "you wanted it, you asked for it, you should have known better" blah blah blah! I was a kid for God sake. How can I, as an adult, hold myself accountable in the least, in the F%^#%#n least!!!! I can't, no matter how I spin it, no matter how I want to beat myself down, I can't hold myself accountable. I was and am 100% innocent.