I wish you were here
What if she just become a blurred out memory? I don't want to ever forget her. I'm so frightened how things have slipped away. I just want her to hold me, stroke my hair and hear her voice: telling me I'm safe, I'm here. But for now, I'm counting stars and I know she's doing the same.
I can't hear her guitar playing, her singing in the shower, the smell of burning toast. I can't even remember the smell of her perfume properly, I can't remember how we survived.
I wish I could burn her last moments out of my mind. I wish I could of helped her, saved her like she always did for me. I wish she wasn't alone. I wish I hadn't of hurt her. I wish I could of stopped it. But most of all, I wish she was happy and here with me.
I do remember leaving her, leaving her with him, I remember every promise that I broke, I remember what I did, I remember the pain