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to my family
i understand your frustrations, i am my own
all the world entrusted to me
and i let you down
in all fairness
i've never felt so abandoned
never been so alone
to my brother
i forgive all the left behind moments
all the silent meals and doubting eyes
i dont know what to say to you either
we've grown into strangers
in all fairness
no one's ever spoken
or told me right from wrong
i've always stood on my own
to my father deep within the ground
i wish i hadn't harbored so much anger
or denied you in my darkest nights
forgive me daddy
for when i was a girl my hate
only wanted someone to save me
to all the people i shoved away
it is my turn to ask forgiveness
my heart longs to sit at a table
sharing love and food with you all again
so i can open my wounds, so i could show you
in all fairness i blocked it all from you
i denied my own faults, fears, and corroded veins
i told you lies and whispered i needed no help
when help is all i craved
if we could start again, would things truly
be any different now?
no
i dont think so either
i am always this broken thing with silent wings
and a voice too scared to speak
so when my road diverges and leaves you all
in the darkening wood, remember me somehow
remember i once was your friend
your child
your sister
remember i used to be a scared thing
and forgive me that i never grew out of that age
the age of dark nightmares
i understand your frustrations, i am my own
all the world entrusted to me
and i let you down
in all fairness
i've never felt so abandoned
never been so alone
to my brother
i forgive all the left behind moments
all the silent meals and doubting eyes
i dont know what to say to you either
we've grown into strangers
in all fairness
no one's ever spoken
or told me right from wrong
i've always stood on my own
to my father deep within the ground
i wish i hadn't harbored so much anger
or denied you in my darkest nights
forgive me daddy
for when i was a girl my hate
only wanted someone to save me
to all the people i shoved away
it is my turn to ask forgiveness
my heart longs to sit at a table
sharing love and food with you all again
so i can open my wounds, so i could show you
in all fairness i blocked it all from you
i denied my own faults, fears, and corroded veins
i told you lies and whispered i needed no help
when help is all i craved
if we could start again, would things truly
be any different now?
no
i dont think so either
i am always this broken thing with silent wings
and a voice too scared to speak
so when my road diverges and leaves you all
in the darkening wood, remember me somehow
remember i once was your friend
your child
your sister
remember i used to be a scared thing
and forgive me that i never grew out of that age
the age of dark nightmares
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