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So the anxiety is back (fast heart beat and clammy palms; but mainly the swift heart beat). I just told me friend about having anxiety a few minutes ago and was a bit relieved-even though that sounds mean-when she said that her dad has been struggling with anxiety for years and like me a few weeks ago, he was unable to go to places sometimes and would turn around to go home due to anxiety. Ugh! Just annoyed but called my therapist and told her enough to let her know about the anxiety and supposed to see her tomorrow but hoping that she will call back just so I can "vent."
I do think that school is bringing this on. I just DISLIKE sitting in classes and find them boring and sad because I just feel like I am not getting ANYTHING done and that it takes time out of my writing time. Sounds dumb but have always disliked school since a hs junior but my mom and a lot of other people always say that you need college in order to get somewhere and whatnot when they have not been to college themselves. I know that college can help but I do disagree that film students need to go. Even another film student at my school said that he felt he wasted time and whatnot by going to college since he just wants to go out and film on his own.
I just get upset/mad because I wonder why cannot THEY (my so-called loving father who abused me b/c of his drinking and my brother who not only abused me mentally and emotionally but took my purity) get this! The pain, anxiety and whatnot. But then I tell myself-or at least try to-that wishing bad on them is not WORTH it because I know for a FACT that they will pay their dues and most likely they are NOT happy and are most likely miserable but if they decide to deny the abuse (like they have) then let them live their lives of B.S. LIES and I will just simply write about them and send them a personal copy of my stories for a big F*** YOU!
Felt good somewhat to write this.
I do think that school is bringing this on. I just DISLIKE sitting in classes and find them boring and sad because I just feel like I am not getting ANYTHING done and that it takes time out of my writing time. Sounds dumb but have always disliked school since a hs junior but my mom and a lot of other people always say that you need college in order to get somewhere and whatnot when they have not been to college themselves. I know that college can help but I do disagree that film students need to go. Even another film student at my school said that he felt he wasted time and whatnot by going to college since he just wants to go out and film on his own.
I just get upset/mad because I wonder why cannot THEY (my so-called loving father who abused me b/c of his drinking and my brother who not only abused me mentally and emotionally but took my purity) get this! The pain, anxiety and whatnot. But then I tell myself-or at least try to-that wishing bad on them is not WORTH it because I know for a FACT that they will pay their dues and most likely they are NOT happy and are most likely miserable but if they decide to deny the abuse (like they have) then let them live their lives of B.S. LIES and I will just simply write about them and send them a personal copy of my stories for a big F*** YOU!
Felt good somewhat to write this.
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