Trying so hard to keep on the rails.
Feeling like I'm rowing without a paddle.
Just want to find a rock and crawl under it.
Just want to hide from everyone.
Can't be arsed with the pretending.
Can't be arsed with the same old shit everyday.
Trying so hard to not self harm, and its taking all of my energy.
Trying to be brave.
So fed up of feeling 'crazy' and being 'fucked up'.
Fed up of feeling like a failure.
Trying so hard to concentrate and get through University.
But how can I? When I feel like this all the time.
On the verge of tears all the time.
Having break downs after break down...
When will this stop? Why hasn't it stopped???