Jump to content


new years

Posted by one.day. , 31 December 2013 · 196 views

Something, please anything, tempt me away from the sleep. At least the nightmares. I've tried everything. Everything. My night time ritual of cleaning has been done, it has to work. I can't bare to dream. To be afraid even when I sleep. To be out of control completely. I so desperately want to sleep. No matter how exhausted I am, sleep doesn't come for long. When it does all the bad is there. It waits for me. Just like Him. It must only be bursts but it feels like an eternity. Its new years day - I don't want another year of this. I can't keep it up. I'm so tired. I'm so sad and angry and scared. I can't cope - I think I need to admit it. But I can't tell anyone in real life. There isn't anyone. Its just me and memories.

I'm so sorry. I wish I would have seen this sooner. I know what it feels like to be so tired. To feel so alone. I'm sitting with you for awhile if you'd like. I'll "hold" your hand if it's okay too. You're not alone.
Thank you so much :metoyou:

July 2016


Recent Entries

Recent Comments

Pandora's Aquarium, Inc. is not intended to be a substitute for professional assistance. All members and visitors are encouraged to establish a relationship with a trained counselor, therapist, or psychiatrist. Pandora's Aquarium, Inc. offers rape and sexual abuse survivor-to-survivor support only. Despite any qualifications staff or members possess, they are not engaged in a professional relationship with any other member. Survivors in crisis are urged to seek local help by contacting 911 or their local rape crisis center. Use of this website constitutes acceptance of the Terms of Service located here.