My Hell Trying to Live
Right now I am tired of the up and down, tired of feeling like I am ready to end this circle and move on. Today I feel like walking across the street and jumping in the river but I won't do that. After my last suicide attempt i promised my husband I would not do that again. Unfortunatley I wake up everyday having to make myself be happy, put on a fake smile. I just want to have a day when I do not think about the abuse from my uncle or my father. I just want to be normal like everyone else.
Tired of hearing people say they want to reach out or be there for me but they really don't. It sounds great to their ears but not to me. I pray everyday that god would fix me or release me from the pain. I am tired of being broken and alone.