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Posted by Aurora325 , 08 May 2012 · 40 views

Lyrics from one of my favorite songs called Stupid Boy by Keith Urban.
this song is for any girl or boy that has or is being abused.

Well, she was precious like a flower
She grew wild, wild but innocent
A perfect prayer in a desperate hour
She was everything beautiful and different

Stupid boy, you can't fence that in
Stupid boy, it's like holdin' back the wind

She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
Stupid boy, stupid boy

So what made you think you could take a life
And just push it, push it around?
I guess to build yourself up so high
You had to take her and break her down

Well, she laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't

You stupid boy, oh, you always had to be right
But now you lost the only thing
That ever made you feel alive
Yeah, yeah

Well, she laid her heart and soul right in your hands, yeah
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans, yes, you did
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't

You stupid boy
Oh, I'm the same old, same old stupid boy

It took a while for her to figure out
She could run but when she did
She was long gone, long gone

She's gone
Long gone
Yeah she is now
Yeah, ohh

On and on
She loved me, she loved me, she loved me
God, please, doesn't matter no
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry baby

Yeah, I don't believe
She's never coming back to me


I have been listening to this song a lot lately and it is very relieving. It gives me strength and assurance. I have been dealing with a lot of people going over my comfort thresh hold. I have had to tell over three guys in the past week or two to not hold me down or do something to me, and the thing is I'm not even doing sexual stuff with them when this happens. But they do somethings (sometimes joking sexual) that triggers it and makes me uncomfortable. I have to say though I am proud of myself. I used to just suffer through it and wait for it to be done but I'm finally speaking up :] That is a big accomplishment for me! :] On another good note today I had a very good conversation with one of my really good friends about everything and I shared a lot of stuff with him. His response was amazing. He is so supportive and honestly I'm not used to that much support. Its great :] I def don't know what I did in a past life to deserve his friendship. I even let him read part of my blog and I NEVER do that. Only one other person has read a blog and he was the first person to know about the rape. These positive responses are making it easier for me to open up to people. I don't think I will totally allow myself to lean on others for support yet because its just not what I do. Resilience and caring the burden on my own is what I know how to do but this is definitely helping me open up better. And maybe one day I can allow myself to lean on others. But we will see. :] That's all for now ta ta :]



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