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I Wanted This Once...

I wanted it once, this freedom I’ve found
Wanted to have fun, messing around
It started so simple, smoking cigarettes and pot
But the more we took, the harder it got

Crack, meth, and cocaine
I’ve been smoking so long I think I’ve gone insane
Shooting drugs into my body
A needle into my vein

I wanted the parties
A hot and heavy bass
I wanted a boy to hold me
Take me back to his place

Tight skirt, belly shirt
I was just what they wanted
I shook it, and dropped low
Everything I had, I flaunted

Now the boundaries I set
Started to fade
Now all I have left
Are the mistakes I made

Is this my life?
All the time I am high
I’ve buried myself
Now there isn’t a sky

I wasn’t supposed to be this scared little girl,
The one caught up in a cold, cruel world
To think,
I wanted this once, the freedom I found
But it isn’t much fun when you're just messing around
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4 Comments On This Entry

Wow. That was really well written. I understand what you mean...in some ways anyway. I hate it when someone tells me they know "exactly" what I've been through, so I try not to say that to others.
We're all for sure different, none of our hurt matches...
But we're all survivors. I like that, I don't feel so alone.
i am on the same boat in a different ocean. You are never alone.
We are all in the same fight just different battles! Beautiful poem though!!
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