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First off, I hope I do not sound like a selfish b**** because this is what makes me feel worse. Ever since we found out that my aunt has breast cancer and all of her doctors appointment, I have been feeling worse. I am stressed and tired from school like many of you are. I am feeling a lot of discouragement too since I got "slammed" in my screenwriting classes and jeez I am such a baby that I cried as soon as I came home. Pathetic to cry over my b.s. I just feel selfish so much lately and that I do not deserve happiness. My mom got engaged to her boyfriend of 10 years and this is not a shock since people think they are already married. But my mom's boyfriend was jumped by my dad about 7 years ago and it just brings back this situation since I NEVER found out the truth about that b.s. It happened so long ago and I get that life moves on but whenever I speak, I am being looked at like I am a liar and whatnot. I am crying so much over my mother's "happiest" time when I just want to seriously run away and never come back.
I feel like I hate my family so much and I know this is NOT fair since 99.9 % of them do NOT know about my father and brother's abuse to me growing up. Or if they do, they do not "see it."
Just feeling frustrated and I have always been known to hold hold hold everything inside because I feel like a loser, weak when I cry.
Just feel lonely a lot and I try my best to pick myself up but sometimes I just want to scream or punch the wall.
I feel like I hate my family so much and I know this is NOT fair since 99.9 % of them do NOT know about my father and brother's abuse to me growing up. Or if they do, they do not "see it."
Just feeling frustrated and I have always been known to hold hold hold everything inside because I feel like a loser, weak when I cry.
Just feel lonely a lot and I try my best to pick myself up but sometimes I just want to scream or punch the wall.
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You do not have to be strong all the time to be strong. You are a surviver. It takes alot of energy, time and strength inside and out to survive.
I believe crying is good cuz it is a way to cleanse the soul.
I hope you feel better soon. Take good care of you becuase you deserve it.
Many blessings