Awwww Melissa! :laugh: It's okay Gurl, i'm right here with you! --huggles-- It's about 9 a.m. and I have yet to sleep. Yeah, it IS really is aggrivating. I joined Pandy's yesterday...and I can't describe how good it feels to have found this place, to know that i'm not alone in everything. This is such a wonderful place...Ya'll have no idea how awesome you are! ...Oh, what was I going to say? Oh yeah! Usually, I can't sleep because my mind is going about 1,000 mph at the end of the day. It's all fine and dandy during the day because i'm busy and don't have to think about much...but when everything calms down, things aren't so good. Every single worry or fear that i've pushed into the back of my mind is just right there...and I can't get my mind to stop. It's horrible. I am usually just awake until my body crashes...and then I sleep for like 12 hours. I was taking Seroquel but it makes me really, really groggy in the morning and gives me drymouth. I didn't know it was an antidepressant... My therapist told me that it was an antipsychotic which can be used as a sleepaid in small doses...but antidepressant is good. :laugh: The only thing that I find calming is the fishtank that's in my room. I just lay there and watch the fish, listen to the water. Oh, Cubby that's a good idea! I think i'm going to order one of those bears...probably the lavender scented ones. I bought some scented pillowcases at Super Walmart. Ya'll should look for them if you'd like. They had lemon, eucalyptus, lavender, camomile, and some other scents I can't remember. Lavender is my favorite...sooo relaxing.