I feel like I'm missing out on a huge chunk of life. Possibilities of meeting new people have been avoided, my opinions have been silenced out of fear of sounding stupid or being ignored, and there's the fear of intimacy. Then, I actually want to get close with a man and he's too busy. Yeah, I know he told me this weeks ago, but it still hurts. I want to tell him that we don't have to form this long-lasting relationship. It's not fair that the bar slut of the night gets to be so close with him, and I'm not allowed to. I know life isn't fair, but it hurts. And I know that he said he never wants to hurt me, but I think that was probably just to get me to leave. I feel incapable of being loved... I wish I knew what to do.