untouchedsoul73

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About untouchedsoul73

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    Survivor......or am I?
  • Birthday 07/19/1973

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  1. I'm sorry you feel this way. Sending you hugs. Remember your not alone.
  2. I find it hard to allow myself to cry as well. I feel weak when I cry. I have to be strong for my 7 year old son. I am afraid that if I start, I will never stop. People see me as such a strong person. They don't know what's really going on inside. Anger is an even harder emotion. I am afraid to allow myself to feel anger. I am afraid I am going to loose control. It's safer for me to be numb. I will not allow myself to be any of these, especially if I am around anyone. I feel like I am loosing it!!! I can't go into the hospital, I will loose my son. My exhusband will make sure of it!!! He's part of the reason. The other is my past, that I feel like I'm still living in today. I don't know what to do. I tell myself I am ok all the time. I know I'm just lying to myself. Sorry, now I'm babbling......